god plz tell her wat inside m mind!!!

deep inside my heart i always felt miserable,guilt and regret!!i m in love wit u wen i was a freshman in secondary skul.dat time my feeling towards u is not so realistic but now its getting stronger as day passes.I noe u misunderstood me a lot wen i 1st met u,,u tin i m a hooligan?i cant denied dat but there is a lot of misunderstanding i can explain to u but i choose not too..cos of my sturborness n lazyness..!because of dat i going to loss u forever.watching u slowly taken by some1 else n cant do a single tin..but there is 1 old saying"loving some1 does not mean u hav to be togeder wit him/her instead u always hope dat she/he be happy always no matter wit hu''so i sincerely hope dat both of u tressure each other(its hurt wen writing dis but as long u r hapi,i m ok wit it) lastly..if u r reading dis..i jus wanna let u noe dat i always be by ur side wen u in miserable or sad..ALWAYS!!,,i wan to let u noe dat d tot of u tinking i m a hooligan i tin its truth..i like u but i goes for other girls instead...but there is always a reason behind everytin.wen i c u i feel uneasy n shy(eventhough most ppl said shy dis word does't exist in Jordon lim but YES wen it comes to u)sometimes i feel lonely n too shy to look for u..den u noe u get some kind of thought(hope u inderstand)LASTLY..i wan to let u noe dat evitin dat i wrote SINCERELY cames out deep inside my heart..i also wish to apology to u wheather u accerp it or not!I M SORRY